MPsays, Things We Lose to the New Year.

Written by Mister Promo | January 10, 2016

Last year, someone lit a fire over my world and burned away all matter that served absolutely no purpose. A great deal of matter was destroyed. Let's just say, the only thing left can fit in a one room apartment. Memories have been erased, pictures deleted, jobs replaced. All to make way for what is to come.

I remember 2012. I was excited to graduate from a dead end job, to prosper in a company with professional growth. I remember moving up quite rapidly. From dietary aide, to short order cook, to cook. All promotions I never asked for. Yet upon receiving them, the pay rate would increase. That was a plus.

~ MP ~

Written by Allen Mark | May 20, 2017

All the while I was never happy.  Why was I never happy? Simply put, it was entirely because I was not in control of my own decisions. In fact, I have never been in charge of my own groundbreaking decisions. I have always been forced to do things that have made me feel uncomfortable. All because I lack a man-like backbone.

I am here to confess that this will no longer be an issue for me. Mark my words in this blog post.

"I Am The Ruler Of My Decision Making."

The only reason you find it easy to treat me like a child is because I act as such. I can only pray that you weren't actually fond of that boyish way because that boy died yesterday.

Are you prepared for what is to come?

I guess I don't really care if you are or not.

This is my life and I plan to live it how I see fit.

~ AM ~

MPsays, I've Made Mistakes I'm Not Proud Of.

Written by Allen Mark | February 19, 2016


Born into this world full of sin just like the last person. And just like the last person the first thing I did was cry instead of give thanks for my existence. Well look at me, already off to a bad start.

As a child, I was the last conceived of four. A lot of people believe that I was spoiled. When in actuality, my parents spent so much money on my older siblings that by the time I joined the family, we were one paycheck short of being broke, but not poor. All the while it has never once broken me. I remained strong and steadfast. That is, until I met you.

My perspective was once untarnished and polished. Now it is ruined by despondency and grief. Some people refer to it as a negative feeling. I live life with worry and I second guess myself all the time. Sometimes I wish these feelings would leave while other times I'm glad they are here. Somehow they make me who I am. It's disgusting, I know?

I'm always wondering how I got this way. How did I become this person who prey on the frail and play with the muddled? This person who feels the right and mourns the wrong? More importantly, how do I return to the place where I use to reside? Wait, do I really want to return there?

No. Not a chance.

It seems I am confused.
No, I'm not.
Yes I am.
Lately I'm not so sure about a lot of things.
Like my thoughts always reverting back to you.
Whatever. I'm not worried about it. Sometimes I am and sometimes I'm wrong and sometimes I'm right.

I need not to be like this. To feel like. 
It is definitely time for a change. 

Starting now.