Written by Allen Mark | September 29, 2015
Review Segment 1
The time had now come. I had to talk to her. Otherwise I would have lied to myself and who wants to do that? I took another deep breath, exited my homeroom, walked gracefully through the double doors and up to the group of girls. I smiled at the girls of the group and then turned to her. I looked her right in the eyes, smiled again and said, "hello." She, then, looked at me and said, "hi."
"My name is Mark. What's yours?", I said. She recited a name that believe it or not, before that day, I had never heard before. So, I proceeded to the next question. Which was, "how did your summer go?" But just after my question was complete, she quickly placed four fingers on the left side and one thumb on the right side of my neck and began squeezing my throat.
Let's skip ahead to the present real quick. As I type this, I'm thinking, "what the hell was that?" That should have been a red flag to run for the city. I would say "run for the hills" but people die there and are sometimes not found for weeks, months even. Okay back to my story.
I stood firm without flinching. I remained focused on her eyes. I slowly raised my right hand and wrapped my fingers around her wrist while asking politely, "are you through?" She released the grip from my throat, brought her two hands together, and began ridding her fingernails from any dead skin she had collected from my neck. Right then, I should have known that this girl was a psycho. Instead, as I caressed the minor pains on my neck, my inner reaction was feeling the entire action of play as HOT!
The next couple of weeks would set the tone of what we meant to one another. We became classmates associates. Nothing more. Turns out she was in a relationship with one of my childhood friends. It would be extremely rude of me to step in and interrupt what they may or not have. So, I did the only thing I knew how to do. I waited.
In the meantime, I would be meet Angela. We became close in an odd sort of distant type of way. One thing I will never forgot about Angela is our first kiss. It was rushed but passionate. The anticipation of it is what made it significant. We could have had something great. Only, my heart was with cafeteria girl. While Angela was actually interested in my childhood friend, only she was not aware of it yet. Yes, the same friend dating cafeteria girl. Angela and I would remain a couple for four months, from December to March. Exactly one month passed the time of a typical middle school relationship.
Ironically though, when my relationship would end with Angela, so would the relationshp between my childhood friend and cafeteria girl. Which only meant one thing. There's nothing hindering us from the inevitable.
Apparently, you don't know until you know.
Continue to Segment 3
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Tuesday, September 29, 2015
MPsays, You Don't Know Until You Know. (Segment Two)
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Saturday, September 19, 2015
MPsays, You Don't Know Until You Know. (Segment One)
Written by Allen Mark | September 19, 2015
When you feel as though you have tried your hardest. You come to a point where you realize it was all for the experience. You try to look at it, anything, on the bright side. When, in your reality, the bright side doesn't really exist. Not in this world at least. I hold more than just some people on a pedestal. I believe that my entire life is held there as well. I have had this idea for so long of a "Perfect Life" that I haven't really taken the time to actually live this life. I mean, the people I've met, the places I've visited, the relationships I've been apart of... What does it all mean? What will it really stand for? Looking back on everything I cannot help but to wonder, what was it all for?
I remember in grade school. Seventh grade. I saw this face. Unfamiliar. I had been a student of this school for six years and had never once seen this face. I walked into the caferteria and there she was seated at a round table. Alone. Eating a bowl of milk and cereal. I remember wondering if she was even in my grade. I assumed she wasn't since I had not recalled seeing her face in the 7th grade halls.
I rememeber mustering up the courage to approach her. I had a slight fear of rejection. Especially if she were older and she couldn't have be younger, she just didn't act like a sixth grader. You know? What can I say, I was in seventh-grade and she was beautiful. I began to conquer my fear and put forth one foot in front of the other 'til I reached her side. But as I took the first step two girls approached her. Very happy. It appeared they were joyous about something. I wasn't paying attention to the actual words professed by either of them only because I felt as though I was rejected before actually speaking. She couldn't have known I was coming. She didn't even see me.
The next thing I thought to do was something bold that would take a whole lot of patience as well as time. I waited. Two months from the moment I first saw her it would be summer break. My plan was, when I returned to the school to begin eighth-grade, after break if I were to see her there, first that would mean that she was in my grade and second I would really have to approach her. And with no hesitation. That was indeed a long long summer.
September finally presented itself. It was the first day of school. I entered the building and proceeded to walk up the stairs to the 3rd floor. The eighth-grade floor. As I reached the double doors, I saw a group of girls chatting and laughing at the punchline of a joke I had missed. I began to walk past the girls, onto and through the double doors. Only, I would notice something that slowed down my steps. It was... This face. The face from the cafeteria the school year prior. I remember being completely speechless. Once the moment passed my steps quickened again as I entered my homeroom. I dropped my bag onto a desk, brushed myself off and took a deep breath. I knew what was next. I had waited all this time. The time had now come. I had to talk to her. Otherwise I would have lied to myself and who wants to do that? I took another deep breath, exited my homeroom, walked gracefully through the double doors and up to the group of girls. I smiled at the girls of the group and then turned to her. I looked her right in the eyes, smiled and said, "hello..."
I guess you don't know until you know.
When you feel as though you have tried your hardest. You come to a point where you realize it was all for the experience. You try to look at it, anything, on the bright side. When, in your reality, the bright side doesn't really exist. Not in this world at least. I hold more than just some people on a pedestal. I believe that my entire life is held there as well. I have had this idea for so long of a "Perfect Life" that I haven't really taken the time to actually live this life. I mean, the people I've met, the places I've visited, the relationships I've been apart of... What does it all mean? What will it really stand for? Looking back on everything I cannot help but to wonder, what was it all for?
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I rememeber mustering up the courage to approach her. I had a slight fear of rejection. Especially if she were older and she couldn't have be younger, she just didn't act like a sixth grader. You know? What can I say, I was in seventh-grade and she was beautiful. I began to conquer my fear and put forth one foot in front of the other 'til I reached her side. But as I took the first step two girls approached her. Very happy. It appeared they were joyous about something. I wasn't paying attention to the actual words professed by either of them only because I felt as though I was rejected before actually speaking. She couldn't have known I was coming. She didn't even see me.
The next thing I thought to do was something bold that would take a whole lot of patience as well as time. I waited. Two months from the moment I first saw her it would be summer break. My plan was, when I returned to the school to begin eighth-grade, after break if I were to see her there, first that would mean that she was in my grade and second I would really have to approach her. And with no hesitation. That was indeed a long long summer.
September finally presented itself. It was the first day of school. I entered the building and proceeded to walk up the stairs to the 3rd floor. The eighth-grade floor. As I reached the double doors, I saw a group of girls chatting and laughing at the punchline of a joke I had missed. I began to walk past the girls, onto and through the double doors. Only, I would notice something that slowed down my steps. It was... This face. The face from the cafeteria the school year prior. I remember being completely speechless. Once the moment passed my steps quickened again as I entered my homeroom. I dropped my bag onto a desk, brushed myself off and took a deep breath. I knew what was next. I had waited all this time. The time had now come. I had to talk to her. Otherwise I would have lied to myself and who wants to do that? I took another deep breath, exited my homeroom, walked gracefully through the double doors and up to the group of girls. I smiled at the girls of the group and then turned to her. I looked her right in the eyes, smiled and said, "hello..."
I guess you don't know until you know.
Labels:
Allen Mark,
education,
Express Yourself,
Inspiration From Within,
Inspire,
MPsays,
Segment,
YDKUYK,
You Dont Know
Haven:
Springfield, MA, USA
Friday, August 14, 2015
MPsays, black vs. BLACK
Written by Mister Promo | August 14, 2015
When the media says black, you think...
Being black is not a pastime; it is not a style; and it damn sure is not a subject of ridicule! How long must you believe everything the media tells you about one culture. Understand one thing, there's black and then there's BLACK. One defines weakness and sorrow. The other defines strength and power. You decide which category you fit in.
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In other news...
It has been brought to my attention that Morehouse College, MC (located in Atlanta, GA and founded in 1867) has accepted 750+ young BLACK men into their freshman class. Making history with the highest number of BLACK men to be enrolled in a freshman class at MC.
This is awesome.
Wait, something isn't quite right. Usually when there is a huge mass of black people congregating there are police and media coverage. I see neither. In fact, these images look as though they were captured by a cellular device. Humph. I wonder why this event did not reach nationwide and or interenational news coverage. I don't understand as to why it didn't.
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I'm thinking...
{Gasp} I know why. It's becuase these young men are doing something positive. Something that is going to ultimately better their lives. Plus it is considered civil. And for some reason the media will not cover a civil gathering of young BLACK men marching together to further their education. Apparently this is not good enough news.
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Well, I would like to say, Congratulations to the 750+ BLACK students beginning at Morehouse College this semester 2015.
To the enrollees, as long as you keep your mind right you will graduate and become successful in whatever you place your goals on. Keep up the good work.
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Haven:
Hartford, CT, USA
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